Today was a hell of a day.
I found out I have degenerative spinal arthritis and two herniated disks, with a third starting to go the same direction. That’s it right now. I have a referral for a spinal specialist whom I hope to see next week. I guess, it’s possible, things could all change when he takes a closer look. It could be that they have not yet herniated, but I may honestly be a little pie in the sky with that one. It’s been years. The pain is unbearable. There’s no doubting that.
I think it would be silly of me to not have expected some bad news, you know. During our slow, patient walk to the office, today, I said to Aaron, “I think, unfortunately, that the best news today might also be the worst.” Meaning, that I really didn’t want to hear that there wasn’t anything wrong according to the X rays. I didn’t want to leave with more questions than I started with. I wanted to know something. And now I know something. With all the pain I’ve been through it was pretty obvious that something was wrong. Very wrong. So, like, good to know. But I’m really not feeling great about anything.